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2011-05-11T21:17:00.001+08:00

Honestly, I am afraid . When will this ever end . When will everything be over ?

And welcome ;)

2011-01-25T22:50:00.003+08:00

My latest blog entry was dated 8 October 2010. I officially proclaim myself to be a PHANTOM BLOGGER ;)

I don't know who will be reading this but I would just like the world to know that I have grad ... No you know what, I am sorry, I am not even going to say anything. I'm sorry its just not worth the mention because honestly, I felt as if I have wasted 2 and a half years of my entire life. But today, I wanna tell you all something or shall I say a few things which I have learned from my past experience.

So I'm now working but due to some confidentiality agreement, I shall not disclose any more information on where I am working . All I can say is, yes it is not the best working environment but I've learned a lot of valuable and meaningful lesson.

It ties with what I have learned in school as well.

No. 1 , Sharing doesn't necessarily equal to Caring

Yes sadly, this is the truth folks . No one likes to share but when they need something , you have to share all knowledge you have on the topic in question to them. Ever been caught in the situation ?

Simple, when faced with a situation like this, don't just grab the work and not show the other party how the work is supposed to be done. Sit down with them and show it to them. Make an agreement. If I show you how to do this, would you show me how I can do that ?

If all else fails, don't fret . Just tell them , nicely, I'm sorry, I am not familiar with the system myself ;)

You know what to do if that don't seem to work for you as well but I shall not say it . ;)

No 2 Nothing lasts forever

yes, in 1 minute people's moods can swing from being on the top of the world to the lowest level of hell, no joke !

i am NOT kidding as much as I wish I was, this is the sad truth folks. So what do you do ?

Don't fret, ignore the person when he/she is not in the best of moods but when you're too late to submit a proposal or get their signature, tell them , well I'm really sorry but as much as I wanted to get this done, you did not allow any room for it to be done ;) * like in your face *

Lets just stop @ 2 for the day !

i am not saying it will definitely work but then again, it doesn't hurt to try , does it ? and yes , i am one to always say , its easier said than done , but hey folks, WELCOME TO REALITY !

<3

Shasha Bagharib

2010-10-08T21:14:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time, a girl was born. She was as pure as white and as she grew, she was as happy as happy can be.

Things changed when she was a teenager. She found of the truth about the real world. Oh how she wished she was a kid all over again.

She missed the times when she was loved, by everyone. Hugs and kisses so easy to come.
Now , all she seems to be doing is making mistakes, one right after the other. She feels like a fool but no one cares. Everything burns, everyone screams right into her face and she gets real scared but life gives her no chance to express herself.

Everything burns. And one day she feels the pain. Of the most sacred word. LOVE.

Yes she feel in love. She's not very pretty you see so she feels her love is never returned. She turned to suicide once again, a failed attempt.

She feels like a burden , a burden she is. She is happy, yes she is but she worries, she worries too much for her good.

She misses people, too many people at that who doesn't miss her anymore. She makes mistakes. Well everyone does but why does she burn ?

2010-09-20T13:55:00.002+08:00

I wish you would notice me. I've been waiting for far too long and I'm afraid it'll be too late, as always. What more do I have to do to have you?

Who am I to you ? Am I just a toy or do you really fancy me ? Please don't hurt me because I've been hurt way too many times. Don't let those tears drop. It doesn't have to.

If you would like to remain friends, do tell. I will back away cos I don't want it to be that way.

I want every part of you. I want you oh so much , oh so bad.

I sound as dumb as dumb can be , don't know how much longer this will be.

Damn you for doing this to me, I wish I knew what I could do to make it go away.

2010-08-17T00:38:00.002+08:00

Berakhir sudah penantian ini.
Ku tidak mahu menipu diriku lagi.
Ku harus melepaskan mu.
Ternyata, ku bukan milikmu.

Berakhir sudah penantian ini.
Ku tidak mahu menyakiti diriku lagi.
Ku rela melepaskan mu,
Ternyata, ku bukan milikmu.

Berakhir sudah penantian ini.
Ku tidak mahu menunggu lagi.
Ku sanggup melepaskan mu.
Ternyata ku bukan milikmu.

Cukup sampai di sini.
Sudah sampai masanya aku mengundur diri.
Aku mengaku kalah.
Aku harap kau akan bahagia bersama si dia.

Kini, semuanya hanya akan menjadi kenangan,
Memori indah yang akan ku cuba lupakan.
Janji - janji yang kamu tidak tepati, akan ku lepaskan pergi.
Tidak bermakna aku menanti.

Salam sayang
Ikhlas dari ku.

2010-08-07T01:01:00.002+08:00

Its late @ night and I can't sleep. I tried to close my eyes but yes, you guessed it right , an image of that certain someone just had to appear. Why now ?

Hope. Exactly what does hope bring? What does hope mean ? Why does hope exist? I wish you wouldn't give me hope, raise my hope up high but only to make me drown in my sorrows.

I may not be the one you're looking for, I may not be the one to replace the person who was once there before but I am also not your doormat.

Well thank you. But I'd rather not stay. I'd be killing myself if i do. I'd be lying if i said i won't miss you.

Then again , does it even matter ?

What do you take me for really? Who am I to you and why can't we be apart? Why can't I tear myself away from you when I know you're nothing but bad news? What have you done to me? More like , what is in it for you ? What is it in for me ?

Enough said, I will keep thinking, I will keep pondering & wondering & i hOpe you won't end up like me.

2010-08-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

Dear World,

Why do you have to be so cruel ? Was it not enough what you have done once before ? Why does it have to keep repeating ? What are you trying to tell me ?

It hurts me so to know that I'll always be that little girl with nothing to live for but .... but what? An empty future? What more do you want from me ? What have I not done ?

But to those who have stood by me , I'm sorry but I have to go. I wish I could stay but I can't . No more, not now. Its such a waste, but its so painfuL.

I'll go, I'll let them win cos to me, it won't mean a thing. I'll end it now before anything else happens.

Thank you for all the fun you've provided. Thank you for everything. I am sorry if I've done you wrong.

<3
Shasha Bagharib

2010-07-31T16:45:00.002+08:00

Are you seriously going to keep up the act? I can't stand it when people make promises you cannot keep. Don't look @ me that way because it only kills me when you do.

It sucks when you try to be nice but @ last you push me away. Its not painful for you but yes it hurts me so. Oh so bad.
No . I won't accept your apology cos you don't mean it anyways !

But never ever let me see you ever, ever , ever. I've lost my touch , yes I did. Its thanks to you. !

Enough from me, enough.

Enough from you, enough. Well I bid farewell now. Goodbye World, GOODbye .

Regards,
Shasha Bagharib

2010-07-24T18:00:00.002+08:00

I don't want a relationship that is based on lies

I don't want to compete

I don't want to seem like the bad person nor do I want to seem like the angel

I don't want to always have to wait for you while you find your happiness

All I want is for me to be happy. Screw all the talk people talk. Screw all the good that will come to people who do good. Screw them all.

Now I live for myself. You'll never be where I am today. But I do have to thank you. Cos without you, I 'm not where I am today. You've killed me but I got up. I'm a stronger person now though that you will not see.

But i can feel it, yes I can. Now I'm just tired but when I get up, once again, I will reign. I will have the title to my name. And when i see you, right there on the street, when our eyes lock, the silence that will overcome us then you will see, I will whispers those words you've always wanted to hear because things will never be the same again.

i promise you.

2010-06-19T13:59:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry I've been such a failure, I 'm sorry I've been such a whiner, I'm sorry I've been everything you do not want me to be.

I've been a bad girl, I've been a good girl , I've been a lover , I've been a hater , I've been a loner , I've been the best company anyone could ever have, I've been everything I thought you wanted me to be.

I don't know what else I should do , I don't know what else I could do, I've done everything but nothing seems to be right for you.

I'm here and you're there, you're there and I'll make my way to get to you, but when I'm there, its like you are not there. You leave me to be, you allow me to be free but in your arms , thats where I would like to be.

Why is it I allow you to make me feel this way , I want this suffering to go away .

:'

Please

Seluruhnya

2010-04-27T16:23:00.002+08:00

Did i bring this upon myself? Or was it all fate? Someone please tell me what I should do? I've tried everything I can but nothing is working out. God, please, help me! I don't want to be left behind.

I will do anything, whatever you ask me to but just don't let me suffer, cos I won't know how to handle having to go through the same thing again.

God give me answers, I beg you.

On a different note, I do want to know, where are you?

Oh and please, STOP blaming me for things I did not do ! You were in it too ! You push everything to me, so people will like you better? Well i have one thing to say to you, FUCK YOU.

<3>
Shasha Bagharib

Jika Kau Tiada

2010-04-21T23:35:00.004+08:00

I've tried. i gave up my everything for you. I tried to be a part of your world. I would google up stuff i didn't know about so that we could have something to talk about. i would spend hours on the web waiting for you to come online, i would keep refreshing the page to check for new updates.

And so one day , i did that. I refreshed the page and what do i get? I see something that ruined my mood the whole day. I've lost you completely. Its sad.

Why? Because now that things are not the way it used to be before, will you still keep to your promises? Will you still treat me the way you used to ? Will we still do the things we want to do ? Together? Or will it be ... " hey , i was supposed to be here with ..."

I haven't heard from you, i've tried to keep the bond, but i've failed. What more could go wrong?

You were my pillar my of strength, you were my only hope. You were something i looked forward to. But now its all over. And i am unsure, was i or was not the one to screw things up with you? I don't know and i really don't want to know.

But now, all i can say is , i wish you a blissful life. be happy, cos i know you are. you would be better off w/o me anyways. i did not have the courage to say how much you mean to me. i guess fate has it that we should not be together, we are not made for each other.

i will accept fate. i will accept that i am to lead a life filled with challenges. but one day my time will come. and when that time comes, i do hope that my memories will be as sweet with him as it was with you.

Goodbye ,
Shasha Bagharib

Over Now

2010-04-18T22:59:00.002+08:00

Everything is over now. It has all ended. My full month of suffering is over. It felt like i just won a court case but truth it, this was a lose lose situation. I lost, they lost. Or did they?

I cannot believe how much hatred there is in this world. There is no wonder why this world is not able to achieve world peace.

I was appalled to learn that people would lick other people's pussy just to live. I mean it not literally but you should know what i mean yes?

It just wasn't what and how i expected it to be but now that it is over, i am glad. i am given time to recover but embarking on a new journey. though i feel like a loser now, i know i did nothing wrong.

Since you're not sorry, so am i . But i am sorry you lost me. I was good , i know it but you've treated me wrong so i'm gone.

Much Love,
Shasha Bagharib

2010-04-12T21:56:00.002+08:00

Aku telah berikan segalanya padamu. Namun kau tiada beza dari meraka. Kau juga menghancurkan hidupku, kebahagiaanku. Aku seharusnya mendengar kata. Tetapi, aku buta akibat cinta sejurus sahaja ku melihatmu.

Mungkin aku khilaf atau mungkin aku bodoh. Aku tidak tahu lagi siapa diriku. Kau telah memberi ku harapan. Kau telah berikan kata perangsang. Tetapi kenapa kini kau pergi?

No more SMS-es no more calls, no more goodnights no more i miss you s ... No more eager waiting for the time when we're all free to meet, no more talks about chatting online and sharing our daily life stories.

Everything is going wrong, everything is not how its supposed to be. you're killing me, she's killing me, he's killing me, i am killing me everyone is killing me. i am going crazy. please tell me, what do i do now that i am not who i used to be.

I'm EXHAUSTED

- Shasha Bagharib -

Homecoming

2010-03-17T13:51:00.002+08:00

its sad, after being away for so long and then finally coming back, everything changes. nothing is ever the same again.

I miss my friends. People back home has opened my eyes and taught me how to differentiate from those i can call friends and those who are just pretending to be a friend. I never knew being away from home can change someone so much.

I have grown , that i must say. I am not the person i once used to be. yES, sometimes change can be good but i didn't say i have changed for the better. i've changed yes, but its because of society and the new crowd that made me who i am now. i love them.

I am sorry if i have disappointed anyone but I am not sorry i left. I have chosen to erase the lot of you from my life and keep the new friends i know. 2 years with them has made me a happier person. They are open to any possibilities. They are forgiving, they are understanding, most importantly , they care and i know its real.

We've been through many obstacles, we've fought, we've cried, we've broken up and we've made up.

Thank you. I will be home soon.

- Shasha Bagharib -

2010-03-07T22:38:00.002+08:00

Well hello

Today's entry is dedicated to you whose hearts got broken by a species we call men.

You know how you find that you are attracted to someone just by looking at them? I believe in that. Love at first sight. It does exist. So does love that develops after being friends with someone for a while.

But love is cannot be defined. What is love?

Let me tell you a story.

I used to be boy crazy but it stopped when I turned "mean". (like someone , something possessed me. It has taken over and is enjoying every bit of living my life.) And then boys started becoming my toys.

But before that happened, i had a friend and i had a crush. Yes, you guessed it right. The friend and the crush hooked up.

Yes, correct. They knew yet they did not want to tell me . They had to show me.

Guys before you get me wrong and start being all judgmental, let me tell you for a fact, you're stupid. DO NOT COMMENT IF YOU'VE NEVER GONE THROUGH THIS. because the pain of seeing the one you love happy with someone else is like taking a knife and piercing it through your skin, deep. It hurts. Hurt itself is not enough to explain the pain.

But babies, if you've been through it, know that there are people who've gone through the same thing as you.

LET THEM BE HAPPY ! I learned that you should let them go not because you have to but because they are fated to be together. Don't defy fate babies.

Would u rather they be happy with the one they love, like, lust ? Or would you rather them be with you but you know that it will never work out ?

Don't let yourself fall. Pick yourself up for HE will help those who tries.

Shasha Bagharib

2010-02-18T00:52:00.003+08:00

Er, Hi.

Aku, sebenarya aku ni, aku sedih. Aku seriously tak expect benda tu akan berlaku. Aku macam , aku sedih. Apa agaknya eh salah aku sekarang? Aku macam nak nagis tapi aku kena happy kan ? Hidup ni penuh mishaps kot. So, aku terima je la nasib aku .

Mungkin ini suatu balasan. Aku patut rela menerima cabaran ini kan. Aku kena dengar cakap orang2 tu. Mungkin diri aku , aku kena berubah. Aku takde X Factor yang orang nak. Aku kena cuba. Aku kena yakin. Aku kena ada will power.

Aku da penat sangat dengar orang perli aku. Aku da tak tahan lagi. Aku mesti. Aku tak pasti lagi aku boleh ke tak. Tapi aku akan cuba.

- Shasha Bagharib -

p.s. pelik eh , buat baik salah , buat jahat pun salah. hidup .

2010-02-14T18:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & VALENTINES DAY<3>

Broken

2010-02-10T01:21:00.002+08:00

You've broken me, as a person. You've destroyed my confidence, you made me lose faith in myself. Nothing I ever do seem right but you have the power to ruin. Why won't you see how much this means to me? I'm trying, not for myself but for the people around me. To make them happy you see. I've given up so much, my dreams, my future to do something I did not want to do. But I was left with no choice. I was lucky.

When I embarked on this journey, I was afraid. But i grew to love what I am doing. But now, I am back to where I was before. I am afraid. I just don't know who I am anymore. I'm broken into million pieces and I cannot put myself back together and it pains me to know I am giving up.

God, I need you right now. Give me faith, let me believe :(

- Shasha Bagharib -

strange, this is not about love

Honestly

2010-01-31T01:08:00.002+08:00

Now what? Its 1:08am , a Sunday. I'm awake. Wide awake. That's not me. I am usually in bed by 11:00pm. Now whaT?

Ever felt like life just contradicted itself. i cannot figure out how life works. sometimes i go by the rules and sometimes i don't. when i do, people don't see it but when i don't i'll be doomed. so now what?

i have an urge and the urge is a bad habit i cannot kick. but then again, old habits die hard. if i do anything dumb, i will get hated and if i get hated i will then be a lifeless soul with no friend. so now what?

questions questions question ... when will i ever find my answers :(

- Shasha Bagharib -

I AM NOT GIVING IN

2010-01-30T18:36:00.001+08:00

SCREW YOU ALL, I AM NOT GIVING IN . NOT YET.

CONSTANT FEAR, CONSTANT LASHING , BUT THAT WILL NOT KEEP ME AWAY !

I WILL BE BACK BIATCH :)

- Shasha Bagharib -

WHAT ELSE?!

2010-01-18T18:49:00.002+08:00

When people say everything will be fine, never believe them ! truth is, sometimes things go wrong and then it gets all hard to fix and that's when there is no way out.

yes i am unhappy, but everyone can be unhappy. it happens, shit happens but there's just no way i can flush it away and make it disappear. why do you have to so selfish !

if you want people to be happy being around and respect you and want you the EARN IT ! not

Anyways, i miss home. Waking up late into the afternoon but making sure i wake up before mummy comes home for lunch and then hang out the clothes, fold em and put them into the cupboards. missing the times when i go swimming before or after watching reruns of Growing Up. and then watching reruns of American Idol, which Kris won and then having dinner with the parents. and then go on Twitter , get more followers and then finally end the day reading a book or watching the Suite Life on Deck or listening to Bieber.

yes, some of that i can still do but its just not the same anymore.

you feel me?

- Shasha Bagharib -

and she rambles again

No i am NOT complaining

2010-01-17T13:22:00.002+08:00

Yes, I've been at home, working on my journals, working on my finishing my resuming trying to sell myself off to my future employers if i decide to work ._. ( that is whole new story ) and then i am like trying to crack my brains trying to like figure out what to do with my portfolio.

I am not one who is artistically inclined. i really have no idea what to do when it comes to designing and coming up with ideas to make something look real nice and beautiful but yet i am fussy. damn i am one hell of nutcase.

i have so much work to do ! i mean okay, not as much as you, but you get my drift. i mean i am so not used to the system here. its like, all i do is go to school and then come home and then work work work. i mean work will never be done cos in life you work. you work to earn a living , you work to get something done you work to keep the family happy . basically you work to keep food on the table and be happy.

and soon i have another story on food. but will get on to that later, today its all about work!

so as you all know i am not from here. i am now in Malaysia but i am from Singapore right. and then now singapore becomes like a place where i go to travel. like i feel like i am a tourist. but when i am here, i AM a tourist. you follow me ? when i go to Bukit Bintang, i am a tourist right, cos i mean i hold a passport from Singapore <3 but then when i am at Ion Orchard, i am like what the hell happened here? UNIVERSAL STUDIOS like AH MI GOD! ARE YOU KIDDING !

yea, something like that. see now i just have a thought, i can write so much when it comes to free writing, give me a topic and my brain protests! so what do i do?

UPDATES : I am almost done with my resume well i got the template down and all and I am now working on all the type out things for my PORTFOLIO . every time i think of this i wanna cry ! cos like i said, i am not artistically inclined. i need someone who knows how to design who can help me ~ otherwise i am as good as doomed.

i need a long cold shower, i need to calm down ! i need to start getting myself a cup of milo and a LIFE :/

xx

Shasha Bagharib

for the last time, its spelled with a H ! :) thanks !

Wondering

2010-01-15T19:29:00.001+08:00

In college, in a room, all alone.

Pondering over what to do , how to make things look nice and new, how do i make myself seem FRESH , if you get my drift.

I shouldn't be wasting my time on this, I have loads to do .

Goodbye,

<3
Shasha Bagharib

If Life was easy

2010-01-11T21:30:00.002+08:00

If life was controlled by a remote control, i would skip Mondays , Tuesdays, Wednesday, Thursdays, Friday and leave Saturdays and Sundays.

If life was controlled by a remote control, i would pause those happy moments and skip those bitter sweets ones.

if life was controlled by a remote control, i would FAST FORWARD to the end of February so I can go home :/

<3 me

Shasha Bagharib

Of Bieber Fever & Twin People :)

2010-01-06T15:02:00.001+08:00

MY TWO FAVOURITE BOYS :) Yay Justin Bieber , Yay Dylan Sprouse :) BUT Dylan has a GF :( oh wells ! :(

:)

- Shasha Bagharib -

4th day into the new year

2010-01-04T13:20:00.002+08:00

Yes yes, its been 4 days into 2010. Been shopping for school stuff , shoes, bags, new facial wash, books, yes notebooks:) And then, i am looking for places to intern at * an early start is always good * , going out with the family, swimming with the kids, dining out with the family, following mum wherever she needs to go to.

School starts next week, in a week. 7 days, yes, i am not very excited cos i am not ready to face my .... long .... awaited ... results... Yes, results should be out anytime soon and yes I should be afraid, very afraid.

Anyway, i guess that's all 4 today folks :) HOW IS YOUR 2010 coming along so far?

- Shasha Bagharib -

31.12.09

2009-12-31T13:08:00.002+08:00

The year is coming to an end. AGAIN. I've been blog hopping and many have said they don't feel like the year's coming to an end. Some are, sad even. Why ? Because they haven't accomplished much this 2009. Well, here's how I feel.

January 09

*Dang, 2009 already ! you have got to be kidding me ... I don't wanna go back to school * Grumpy grumpy *

February 09

*CNY break should be right about now * faster than got long long break ! *

March 09

*I'M Turning 18 ! and when i finally do, i had my party @ MCd's and the kid in me emerges ;) that's when Disney walked right back into my life *

April 09

* I'm going home in approximately, how many months again ? Life is such a drag *

May 09

* Okay seriously, life has become a routine, home school home school home school in between, talk , shower , eat , meet people , like i need a life , a new life a BETTER LIFE ! *

June 09

* Wedding bells are ringing, ding a ling a ling , not just one but a few *

July 09

* Break is coming, its coming , i can feel it ! not before the exams begin first that it , hell i don't care, do well, break is coming LIKE real soon *

August 09

* SEMESTER BREAK, okay no shit, i am so scared, results are coming out in like what, i don't know man ! RESULTS are out STRAIGHT Bs, OH MY ME ! hey, that's good enough for me kay ! Can i do it again ? :/ wait & see

Oh and HAPPY B'DAE SINGAPORE .

September 09

* ugh do i have to ? back to school, suite life over ;( *

October 09

*By this time, GOD JUST KILL ME NOW. steps and moves and sing and write and kindle candle doh *

& i figured people kept getting married, having babies or getting into a relationship, where am i in ALL THIS ?!

November 09

* BREAK is coming , OGM its coming ! The year is coming to an end soon ! *

and FINALLY , THE LONG AWAITED

DECEMBER 09

* Been watching a lot of DISNEy, JUSTIN BIEBER <3 , spending time with the family <3 <3 spending time w my new toy <3 MAC :) and i feel like a kid all over again. the stress is not there anymore BUT yes there is always a BUT

i am eagerly, anxiously waiting for my results , i really don't want a C but i am kinda expecting one :( for a particular subject and i am really sad :(

SO , how was your 2009 ?

<3

Goodbye 2009, you've taught me well

- Shasha Bagharib -

Deep Inside Me

2009-12-29T22:47:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i am just so afraid. i am terrified that things will not work out right, that i'll end up with nothing. i try, sometimes, i try too hard and i fail cos i crumble. but i try.

Why can't you see that i am trying? What is it about me that blinds you of the brighter side of me? Why? Am i detestable? Am i not human enough for you? Do i lack the human soul ? What is it ? Am I really that evil in your eyes?

I am all messed up because now , i just don't know where to begin. i don't know what's right and what's wrong. i don't know when to speak and when i should just butt out. Keep my opinions to myself you say, don't get involved. but at times, i have to step in to make it right cos now everything just seems so wrong.

i am still waiting, i've been waiting. but yet, nothing.

< Shasha Bagharib >

My State of Mind

2009-12-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

Of December

2009-12-18T22:36:00.001+08:00

15th December Happenings

2009-12-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Tania !

Sitting in my room, in the living room , watching TV , watching YouTube videos , Justin Bieber , Cole & Dylan Sprouse
perfect :D

<3

Shasha Bagharib

Happy Family

2009-12-14T23:17:00.002+08:00

No , not the card game happy family , i mean i am really happy with the family !

Speaking of family, this Wednesday i am gonna spend a day out with my cousins from my mother's side. I only see them at family gathering which happens occasionally , not all the time you know what i mean ? And , being away from people for half a year, many things change.

People get married, people hook up , people get PREGNANT ! Yes... that means an addition to the family ! :)

Well, i had fun going out with my sister and my cousin , Nadiyah today. Yes, i felt like death when i got home but it was worth it. Mac got himself a new skin protector AND its all thanks to my darling sister ! :D

<3
Shasha Bagharib

p.s. yes, i only blog a lot during the holiday season !

Everything About Home

2009-12-13T13:30:00.002+08:00

My Sanctuary

Home is where the heart is

Free from the oh-so-busy life

Time out with the family

Friends come and go but the family is always here to stay. Although i have no plans with anyone yet and yes, it can or it will get boring after a while, i am happy to say , that I am having my well deserved share of fun (OR so i think *results won't be out till end of Dec , early Jan *) , swimming , gym-ing , getting back on the health track (*can't wait to feel healthy again) . Yes, its time for some "ME" time !

So, if you do want to meet up with me, be a darling like Jane, send me an email. (I have no phone)

Have fun all you other people from Sunway University College who are on semester , summer , term break just like i am . Enjoy the pre -festive season, its time to bond with the family . Shop till you drop and go be with the people you have neglected throughout the course of your education.

I miss you guys already, all our crazy random moments, the one minute argument followed by the making up session, the storytelling session but we will have just that 7 weeks to be merry. Enjoy with the family, forget college

With that, HAVE A MERRY SHOPPING FOR X-MAS holiday .

<3 from across the causeway
Shasha Bagharib

1:34AM

2009-12-10T01:34:00.003+08:00

I cannot sleep but my eyes just won't stay open

I cannot comprehend but i know what's going on

I cannot face you but i just wanna talk to you

I cannot go on but i guess i'll have to suck it up and get on with it !

That aside, I am heading out again later in the morning, since i have no electricity from 10am-4pm so i don't know what i will do. Will shower and stuff tonight before i go out

Well, guess i will be updating again later bringing you news about God knows what.

Till then

<3
Shasha Bagharib

My ... My First

2009-12-08T18:14:00.003+08:00

And yet another semester is over ! Its back home for me on Friday. Swimming and gym-ming.

How have you been world? Any new surprises for me ? Do tell . I would love to know what's been going on with you. Your pain, your glory, your joy and everything else. As usual, i have many stories for you but if i do tell, i won't know where and when i will end.

World, all i want is to be the best, not to beat the rest but the best for me and for my future. i don't have to be on top all the time i mean when am i ever? but then again, once in a while it would be nice don't you think ?

i see them smile on their faces, i see them laugh out loud, i see them tears of joy but never on me. its always on that someone else . Patience they tell me. well i'll wait i say. and wait is what i do best.

So long , farewell world.

<3
- Shasha Bagharib -

Speaking words of Wisdom

2009-11-21T17:01:00.002+08:00

Hello world,

How have you been? I haven't been writing for a while now. I just can't find the time to do that.

I've been spending way too much time in college BUT spending those times with people like Melinda and Joanne beats spending time alone at home. I <3 em both. I could do anything and everything with them, if you know what I mean :p

Melinda and Joanne are two people whome I've met and I've never regret meeting them ! They rawk my sawks ! No matter how crazy they are, no matter how much we diss one another, we are still and will always be in love with one another.

I wish you could see how crazy they are like right now ! <3

I'll miss them when this ends .

- Shasha Bagharib -

Rehearsals

2009-11-10T21:39:00.002+08:00

Am in college, rehearsing. Yes Yes Yes. Its all about the rehearsals nOw !

And for my finals, my topic " MODERNITY " and the film we foCus on is "MODERN TIMES" ! Chaplin yAw ! :)

Joanne we can dO tiZ ! <3

Singapore in a mOnth ! I can't wait ! i seriouSly miss hOme like fuck ! :'(

Gonna swim swim swim once i reach hOme ! i miSS that condO of mine !

- Shasha Bagharib -

will be back for more !

You had me right there

2009-11-06T23:46:00.003+08:00

Am i who i am ?
Or am i who you want me to be ?

Do i want change?
Or do i want me to change to suit you?

You confuse me , you mesmerize me but most of all , you've got me .

- Shasha Bagharib -

<3

Grandma, Grandpa Saya Rindu Kamu

2009-10-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

So , my group's documentary filming session has finally kicked off. First off, we went to PJS to recce our location and to also get to know our first interviewee, Nagisa's grandmother.

She is a pleasant old lady though according to Nagisa she is senile. She forgets what you tell her or ask her after a few minutes but when you catch her at the right moment, she can give you tips on life that will make you go " Shit ! Why didn't i think of that?! " And she can be quite funny sometimes like " What the cow do? You don't know what the cow do ? " She is so cute! :)

After the interview though, I began to feel and realize how much I miss my grandfather and also my late grandmother. I am so far away from my grandfather and all I want is for him to see me graduate from college and graduate from university. I want to see that smile on his face and to make him proud of me because my grandma's only wish is to see all her grandchildren make it to University. My sister is almost done with university and she is looking to continue her PHd while I am going to graduate from college real soOn and hopefully go into Uni , be it RMIT or Monash University Sunway Campus . I will be real happy upon graduation from Sunway University College .

This dream of mine is what keeps me motivated. God willing :)

luv,
- Shasha Bagharib -

Of Fantasy and Reality

2009-10-26T23:54:00.002+08:00

Why is she still awake?

Kerana aku takut. Aku gementar. Aku bukan manusia yang pernah kau kenali pada suatu masa dahulu.

Kian lama, ku menanti , kehadirannya yang ku idamkan. Tetapi, setiap kali si dia muncul, hidupku musnah bak dilanda malapetaka. Sesak diriku dibuatnya, teraniyalah tubuh ku disebabkan kemurungan yang dirasa.

I am sorry I am not who you want me to be. I am sorry I am not good enough for you. I am sorry I am different from all the other girls you've met. I am sorry I am not the girl you would like to be seen with. I am sorry I am not who you thought I was. I am sorry I am such an embarassement to you. I am sorry I cannot sing you to sleep because my voice is not one of melody. But I am SO sorry, I met you.

- Shasha Bagharib -

You may think I am a child, you may think I am emOtional but nO, this is just my way of coming up with new stories :) CHARACTERS yo!

2009-10-16T21:15:00.002+08:00

Ada makna di sebalik senyuman ku
Bukan bermakna ku senyum ertinya ku terlepas dari segala dugaan dunia.

Aku perlukan pengertian dari dirimu
Aku sangat perlukan mu
Tapi di kala aku perlukan mu di sisi ku, kau hilang tanpa kata
Setelah itu, kau tidak akan kembali.

Katakanlah jika kau sudah bosan
Katakanlah jika kau mahu ku pergi dan tidak kembali
Aku akan mengerti.

Tapi, aku mahu kau tahu, aku tidak pernah menyesali perhubungan yang pernah kita jalin, sesingkat mana waktunya, aku syukuri peluang berada di samping mu.

Dari si dia, insan yang saling merindui mu,
- Shasha Bagharib -

Yang Benar

2009-10-11T11:49:00.003+08:00

Yang benar, Shasha tidak tahu siapa kawan dan siapa lawan ? Kawan boleh menjadi lawan dan lawan boleh menjadi kawan. Tetapi, ianya perlukan masa. Masa akan membuktikan kebenaran. Siapa yang boleh dianggap kawan dan sebaliknya.

Memang Shasha keliru , memang Shasha kecewa tapi akan kan daya, Shasha tidak boleh buat apa-apa. Biarlah Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa pahitnya hati Shasha memikirkan perkara yang lalu.

Yang benar, Shasha tidak suka pada orang yang tidak menepati janji. Shasha paling benci orang-orang begitu. Apalah salah Shasha orang harus buat Shasha sedemikian? Kalau awak tidak mahu tolong , Shasha akan cari orang lain untuk tolong. Shasha tidak akan menyusahkan awak. Shasha tidak suka menyusahkan orang lain.

Ya Allah, tolonglah hambamu ini. Shasha sedih diperlakukan seperti ini. Shasha lebih rela menggadaikan hidup dari rasa seperti ini .

Yang benar, yang hanya Shasha mahukan ialah untuk pulang.

dari sudut pandangan yang telah disakiti,
- Shasha Bagharib -

Of a windy Saturday

2009-10-03T10:39:00.002+08:00

Dear World,

Now here I am in my lonely world , ignoring everything else around me

Pacifying myself. telling myself

" EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT "

<3

StiLL @ It

2009-08-31T13:57:00.002+08:00

dear you,

how long has it been? it seems like forever that you've been goNe.
Well i hOpe you still remember me. if God permits it, we'll meet again One day .

I miSS you dearly.

<3

everything will be OKay. my prayerS wiLL always be with you.

2009-08-28T16:26:00.002+08:00

You never know how much you miss someone till you lose them.

Sounds familiar? Exactly what I am feeling right now. I've told myself this a lot of times after I've returned from funerals, sending people off but I've never learnt my lesson till something happened to someone dear to my heart.

Its painful yes. And it hurts even more to know that I cannot do anything about it.

I miss you so much.

My prayers wiLL always be with you.

Its nOt easy

2009-08-17T22:03:00.003+08:00

Alone and lonely
Its not easy

Coming to realize that the people you were once close with turns out to be your worst enemy
Its not easy

Ensuring people do not bring you down, kick you when you are at the lowest point of your life
Its not easy

Persuading, Begging, Contemplating, Awaiting
Its not easy

Being away from your loved ones for so long
Definitely makes you crazy

_____________________________________________________________________________________

So, i am nOw back in Malaysia which means the beginning of a new semester which also means I am nearing the end of 2 and a half yrS of college life ! AlmoSt that is ! ALMOST!

i LooK at cOllege life like a traffic light. NOw I am at a red light. When I am in Singapore, itS a green light.

Singapore is my vacatiOn, its my sanctuary. Malaysia is my, I wouldn't call it jail. Its my , I don't know. I like being in Malaysia but one thing I don't like about it is, the difference in lifestlye. When I go back to Singapore, the law is different, here its different. Different curfew hourS, different surroundings, different lingos, everything is different.

But i would say its same same but different lah. If that makeS any sense of at lah.

YeS, the lah is on purpoSe! i really really need to stop the usage of Singlish, Manglish or whatever you chOOse to call it !

Heading off to bed. Goodnight Earthlings :)

luv,

Shasha Bagharib

Lullaby

2009-08-12T01:04:00.002+08:00

Sing me a lullaby sO I can fall aSleep.

Oh wait, you don't belong to me nO more , you're noW a man with cOmmitments.
I'm Sorry. I shOuldn't have.

- Shasha Bagharib -

p/s dOn't kick me when I 'm dOwn.

oF relatiOnships & StaTus

2009-08-08T02:48:00.000+08:00

SituatiOn One

Girl: Oh my God ! He'S sO cute , he'S so hOt, he'S so MINE !

* Few minuTeS later *

Girl : * tearS * Why Oh wHy ! wHy her and nOt me !

SituatiOn Two

Boy : Hey there. You muSt be tired .

Girl : Yea, weLL erm.. I am... bUt hOw do you .. iS it really that Ob...

Boy : WeLL of courSe i dO ! You've been running thRough my mind the whOle day ! * Sees another girl and flaShes his million dollar smile *

Girl : * speechleSS, walks away and mutters under her breathe... Guy doeSn't nOtice* For a hOt guy, he'S really dumb ._.

Situation Three

*Boy is on the phOne*

Boy : Yes baby, I love you and nO one elSe but you ...

Voice frOm within : HONEY ! DINNER TIME !

- tO be Continued -

CannOt

2009-08-07T01:40:00.002+08:00

I am annoyed ! I cannOt allow thiS to get tO me ! NatiOnal Day is round the corner and it callS for a time of fun filled happineSS !

Am going to spend my NatiOnal Day with my family , at hOme having a barbeque party by the pOol :)

Sounds perfect kan ! If only my sister waS hOme to dine with uS . Well schOol's schOol .

So , what are you going to do ?

- Shasha Bagharib -

MistaKes

2009-08-03T01:45:00.002+08:00

Ain't nOthing but a miStake.

I've made a lOt of mistakE. thOught I thought I've learnt .

Sadly nOt.

- Shasha Bagharib -

"riSk my life tO feeL your bOdy next to mine . "

wHen we girlS useD to gO gaga Over bOybands

2009-08-01T02:38:00.000+08:00

♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
i am watching nsync mvs ~
Tania says:
i like byebyebye.. and pop
Tania says:
haha
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
SAMMMMMEEE !

Tania says:
omg.. i miss all teh olden days boy bands mann
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
I noe kan !!!!
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
i miss the times when i would go gaga watching BSB and Nsync on mtv !! i would get my hands on their latest posters and alL.
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
and then there was A1 ~~~!!!
Tania says:
YEAAAAA
Tania says:
OMG A1!!!
Tania says:
hahahaha

Tania says:
and and... there were like one more.. i forgot
Tania says:
omg.. hahahhaa

♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
haaaahhhhaa MOFFATS !
Tania says:
OMG!!!
Tania says:
HAHAHAHAHAHHA
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
haahhhhaa i used to their songs !
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget ... - ♫♪♥ says:
HaNSON ! haahha the 3 brothers w long hair !
Tania says:
they usedto look so cuteee
Tania says:
eeee

TaNia and I went baCk to our childhOod or shaLL i say earlier teenage days and it
reminded me of the time i used to go gaga over Nick Carter and Aaron Carter, Lance BaSS
and the Moffats.

I miSS thOse dayS.

TimeS when nOthing elSe mattered except for muSic
When alL girlS could talk abOut waS bOybands
WheN peOple could actually clIck becaUse they talk aBout their craze !

Oh weLL, i gueSS thOse dayS wiLL just live to be a part of my Sweet childhOod , nO early teenage days
memOry :)

luv,
Shasha Bagharib

p.s. I stilL love AarOn and Nick Carter and Lance BaSS (be it gay or nOt, doeSn't matter)

Fear of Speaking

2009-07-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

Is there any scientific name to describe the fear of speaking to someone?
Cos that's exactly what I am feeling now.

When I fabricate details of it in my mind,
I go all dizzy like as if the scene in my head is slowly unfolding in reality?

Then again, I don't really know you
So, I guess aLL i could do is try?

But I am afraid .
Of getting shunned by you

Tired of having to go through days and nights
Of heartbreaks.
Crying myself to sleep, writing stupid pity notes
etc etc

God , hOw can someone alLow you to go aLL crazy !

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. nOw i hoNestly don't know

2009-07-22T13:57:00.003+08:00

Surfer KrunK says:
nor mal la
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget - ♫♪♥ says:
haahhhaa go do stand up comedy!
Surfer KrunK says:
cannot
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget - ♫♪♥ says:
why cannot ?
Surfer KrunK says:
its not an indian thing to do stand uo
Surfer KrunK says:
up*
♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget - ♫♪♥ says:
i sOooo have to blog that !

♪♫ Shasha Bagharib - Forbidden to remember, terrified to forget - ♫♪♥ says:
got rules eh Indians cannot do stand up comedy?

Surfer KrunK says:
according to section :mom from india/4eva

Surfer KrunK says:
cannot la

Surfer KrunK says:
but if mom who konon orang putih

Surfer KrunK says:
memang boleh!

Meet Evan Mooris !

He very praSan BUT he is sOmeone whO can put a smiLe on your face :D

Tania says:
ur a nut la u!
Tania says:
y??????

Meet Tania !

She is another one whO can make me laugh and soMeone i can annoy and I know she wiLL never get irritated ! :D

SoOn, you'll get to meet other peoPle whO deserves to be on my blog :D

-Shasha Bagharib-

B-R-E-A-K

2009-07-12T13:33:00.002+08:00

Yes, I am done with my 4th semester ! Another semester down ! 4 more sems to go !

I am officially on break.

It was not an easy semester. You'll have to agree. Went through a lot and I am not making that up. Be it work or friendship/relationships it was all came too fast too much .

But, looking on the bright side, I am headed off to Singapore in exactly 3 days ! Yes! Am going hOme on Wednesday evening. The main reason is of course for me to see my family and maybe catch up with some friends. Other than that, I just want to enjoy some me time in the comfort of home. *I still haven't packed ! *

Anyways, I will be back with more updates on my Oh-SO-Boring life which nOo one wants to read about ! :D

-Shasha Bagharib-

Make me Happy ... Please?

2009-06-20T21:26:00.002+08:00

Today, Shasha is happy , will you let her stay in her sanctuary? She won't stay too long but she just needs this moment.

So, had a girls night out with Liyana and Ranessa! More mOre mOre !

Had fun ! Its a Saturday night, I am happy doing my work while waiting for the laundry to beep ! :D

-Shasha Bagharib-

thinks thats enough ! :D

So now, what's the status?

2009-06-17T19:24:00.002+08:00

So now I am a burden I guess? You can't even look at me no more? Why is that?

Have I done something so gravely wrong? Well I apologized didn't I. Actually, she always does . But why do you look at me different?

I am not those who dresses up all dressy , with short skirts and sleeveless tops. But is that what you are looking for? The only quality you look for in a girl?

So what now? Are you still willing to be a friend? Are we still in this together? Either that, or I am willing to let go.

AT THIS POINT IN TIME EVERYTHING JUST SUCKS !

I wish

2009-06-12T21:06:00.002+08:00

I wish you did not exist
I wish you did not come into my life
I wish you did not
I wish you did not
I wish you did not.

But i guess it was all too late.
It happened.
And you didn't care.
You left me there. I thought you were going to come back for me
But no.

You gave me hope.
But you ruined it
You were my pillar of strength but you left me hanging.

No, I do not hate you
No, I do not pin anymore hopes on you
But yes,
I still like you.

-Shasha Bagharib-

Urs Sincerly

2009-06-05T18:01:00.002+08:00

Hello Stranger,

Yes, that's what you are to me now. Nothing but just a stranger. I thought we could be friend but little did I know, you would just leave me during the times I needed you most.

I may not be the most perfect girl with the perfect body or the pretty face. I may not be the girl of your dreams.

But I just want you to know, I am not crazy over you. You are not the one I am looking for, you are not the one I would die for. If I had a friend in a boat capsizing 10km away from shore, and you're in the boat too, you may not be the one I safe.

All I wanted us to be was nothing more than friends. But I guess you allowed your ego to take over you. Thank you for what you've done for me. I'm sorry for all the wrongs I did to you.

But never will I look at you the same. For , you've changed my feelings about you. You did not listen and you caused me misery. But what am I to do. Crying over spilt milk will not make things right.

My reputation is now gone. I've gone back to the gutter. From working my way up to the top, now I've crumble. All done by you.

Stranger. You've impacted me. Good and bad. But just want you to know, I'm gone.

-Shasha Bagharib-

Will it stay or is it just another one of those?

2009-05-30T21:34:00.002+08:00

hEllo world.

How's you all doing? are you tired already? of all those superficial fakes living in you? of all those who are nothing but just a waste of space in you?

yes? well i feel you world, i really do.

Sometimes, i just wish I could do something to help. but sometimes, i just can't help but think that i might be falling into those categories. It scares me sometimes . but then again, who am i to say i am perfect? who is anyone to say they are? am i right?

Look at me. Asking questions to the world.

Well. I just can't help but feel betrayed by those I thought would actually mean something to me. To all those people I allowed into my life. But no. I got disappointed once again. It sucks you know. Its really painful. But what am i to do? Its over now.

I learn a lot of things each day. But then again, I just learn it the hard way.

-Shasha Bagharib-
wishes you were here to stay.

Of Books and TechnOlogy

2009-05-25T14:27:00.002+08:00

So, i sprained my ankle once again. Yay me ! But its the first time thiS year!

thIs SEEms to be a traditiOn. Me spraining my ankle. itS always during schOOl time.

Am missing out on all the fun. Sadly. If there is any fun to be missing out on. bUT on a positive note, i've been doing my assignments, reading quite a bit, a lot of New Moon, yes the Twilight series with the oh so hot , Edward Cullen, * i grew up thinking VAMPIRES were REAL people * and a bit of production design and performance studies. Yea, thats what I've been up to. Thank God for technology as well.

Oh and also I;m hooked onto DSM, finished the whole of season one . waiting for my darling sister to get me season 2 ! i love nicky george and jeremy darling !

oRITe then, guess that's all for now. Am heading back to schOol tomorrow. after missing out on the "fun".

Lets see what is in store for me !

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. it was hell of a lot of fun being bombarded like that ! :D

2009-05-17T01:34:00.002+08:00

I ponder, I wonder, I reflect, I think and I go
WASTED

I try, I do , I work , I think and I go
FAILED

Well, I just want to make it right but when I try it all just goes so wrong.
It hurts to even pick myself up again knowing then if i do so, it will all repeat again and nO, i don't want it to happen.

You can hate me, yes you. For you have no space , no place in my life.
People come and go and I am sure you know, so what's losing you to me?

I don't care if you want to think I am a child for in my mind, I am a growing child. I am still learning and through this learning process , I make mistakes to help me through this one hell of a life that is full of meaning.

So, here I am .

Done .

luv,
-Shasha Bagharib-

2009-05-14T12:46:00.003+08:00

I thought you'll never leave,
But I thought wrong.

I thought I'll pull through,
But I thought wrong.

I tought you'll always be there,
But I thought wrong.

I tought I'll always be the one you cared for,
But I thought wrong.

I tought you'll listen and wash away my fears,
But I thought wrong.

I tought I'll be happy with you around,
But I thought wrong.

I tought you'll love me as much as I loved you,
But I thought wrong.

I tought I'll be with you forever,
But I thought wrong.

Its the hOlidays, but I kinda already wasted half holidays away. I should be doing my work. I really should. I am actually. Completing my journals. And I plan to complete my work by Sunday ! See I have a target. No i should finish all my work, well as much as I can by 3pm. I still have 2 hours. Am going to head to Pyramid to do the interview and then head for call time at 6pm.

Sometimes, even I confuse myself.

Go figure.

luv me ,
-Shasha Bagharib-

Take this paiN away

2009-05-01T23:06:00.004+08:00

The epitoMe of disAppointment. No, i AM NOT emOtional. I just have a lot of surpressed emOtionS!

I dunnO whether you are genuienly my friend, or you are just pretending to be a friend for the sake of gaining something for yourself. Get what I mean? I mean, its been crazy. I keep thinking about this at the back of my mind and everytime I think deeper into it, I find out something new, and everything comes into place. Its like I don't have to lie to myself anymore. I don't have to do much convincing, it just happens.

Though it sucks, coS you don't know what other people are thinking but then again, think about this. You try to say you're strong and whatever not. How about, letting go of your ego and be the one to cry. For once. There is no harm in crying. Sometimes, its good. People will understand. Trust me. Why? I won't say I've been through it. I won't say, been there done that. I don't believe in that. Cos different people are different. They may fall into the same kinda situation but how they take to it, its different. So, yea. I kinda hate it when people tell me, BEEN there Done that ! You're not me. How do you know we feel the same way?

Anyways, i could go on with this entry for a long time. BUt i chOose not to. I chOOse to keep it for another time.

This is a gist of it. So at least now you know how I am feeling.

Do you?

-Shasha Bagharib-

hOme on a Saturday nigHt

2009-04-18T22:24:00.002+08:00

Hmm. Yes . I am at home on a Saturday night because .... I am coOl like that.

Deal with it.

Okay this is the story. I went to KLPAC today to watch Aircon, a play which Zalfian, my lecturer directed. I went with a bunch of juniors and met up with people from my class there. Yes, the show was good but I won't go into details. If you want to know, watch it ! Tix are sold out unfortunately, so GOOGLE it or something.

Anyways, after the show, we had a class for a bit and then a bunch of juniors and I went to Pavilion for our brunch + dinner. And then that's when it started.

Liyana, Amir, Hanif, Albert, Eldy and darling Ernest wants to go clubbing. So, me being the very difficult person to persuade was very half hearted. Yes, I had no idea how the clubbing plan started therefore I was not dressed to kill. Anyways, point is , in the end, I decided to follow CD home.

Which is why , I am here right now, giving you this entry because I do not wish to start studying for my test on Rituals coming up this Tuesday which will be held in KLCC and I have no idea how I am going to get home so most probably I will have to sleep over at Nagisa's. She already said can so I hope she will remember that I am sleeping over.

Other than that, I've been really busy. I am working on my music video which I know will suck. I will try to be optimistic about it. Since my MV is going to be only 5-6 mins long. Any longer than that and my editting will suck and I will commit suicide becos i suck at editting and anything related to video and photography. I am not kidding. And then I am directing a show for Teacher's Day which means I am directing my juniors which I am quite optimistic about. And then I am Stage Managing a show but on the day of the show i will be at ISTANA BUDAYA so i dunno how the hell I am going to be there on the day of the show so i will have to get an ASM. And then on top of that I have so much projects to do and assignments to catch up on. Marvellous is it not? And finally, MY LIFE IS A DISASTER!

Oh and I watched Coming Soon last night , yes with a bunch of juniors, well they stay closest to me which is why I hang out with them a lot . nOt becos I am bias so shut that mouth up!

And yea. basically, that's it. and I am running low on cash.

I am not asking you to care, if you don't give a flip how my life is then why did you read my entry till herE? if you reach till this page, this shows that you show interest in my life. So don't start hate tagging me alright? and nO i DO make sense!

:D

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. optimistically speaking, you suck !

2009-03-30T00:59:00.002+08:00

Sitting in the dark, just me, myself and I . Thinking, pondering, cracking my brains for answers.

Why do things happen? Why do I have to meet new people when they'll just go.

I hate goOdbye's but I don't mind temporary goodbyes.

But what I hate more is Losing YOU.

Please, don't be like the rest of them people whO comes into my life only to lift my spirits but then go when I am having so much fun. When I feel so loved.

Don't leave because I've grown to like you , not more than a friend thO, I swear.

Just promise me something. That you'll stay.

-Shasha Bagharib-

WelCome

2009-03-29T19:36:00.002+08:00

I have once again, neglected my darling blog.

Sorry for the lack of updates to you readers out there. I know there are some people in the world who read my blog. How do I know for sure? Well, I just do.

Anyways, things are going to get pretty hectic as of next week. I just know it. I can feel it really. And time is not going to pass by as fast as I want it to.

Sem 3 has come and gone and now it is down to Sem 4. Whow. I made it half way through the course. Another four semesters to go and I get my diploma. One dream come true. And then it is time to get that Degree that I yearn for. Yes ! I now know what I want to do. Although certain parties don't think I have what it takes to be that certain thing I want to be, I know that I have what it takes to prove them wrong. No one takes this to heart. I just know that I can. If I have dreams, its not for you to say whether I can do it or otherwise. My dreams are mine to fulfil. I can make them or crush them. Its really up to me right?

Well then, I hope I will be back with posts that are more happening than this.

Oh and before I go, the new batch of Performing Arts students just arrived, last Friday on the 2oth of March. They are such an easy group to work with. I love them already. And I finally found friends who live in the same condo! Thank God!

Btw, I am turning 18 ! Like finally! bUT i wish I was younger thO. Its fun seeing people's reactions when you tell them that you're really 17 when they think you have to at least be 22 or older. Oh well that's life right there.

And yes, I do look older than dear Sister :)

-Shasha Bagharib-

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check it out alright !

nOW that itS over

2009-03-16T15:04:00.002+08:00

Semester 3 is officially OVER. 3 sems down, 5 more to go.

Time flies. I am glad I did not drop out of DPA though there were many occasions whereby I thought that this course was not right for me but I have to admit, this is what I've always wanted to do.

I love my classmates and I love the course!

I am truly contented :D

-Shasha Bagharib-

in Singapore.

Of College & GirlFriends !

2009-03-10T23:54:00.001+08:00

NeglecTed

2009-03-09T14:22:00.002+08:00

I've neglected my persOnal spaCe again. For about 2 weekS now.

Well, I've been really busy with rehearsalS and all. Finally, I am done with the 3rd Semester.

3 semesterS down, 5 more to go. Time flies. Just last year I was packing up, all

"ready" to venture out outside of home. And now, its been a year . I've settled down, yes... Not completely, but enough to get me by. I am contented.

Come March 21st, I will be starting my 2nd year. come 2010, I will be working on my Graduation Project and finally doing my internship to finish it off. And then, I will get my diploma. Never have I thought about all this till today.

WHy? because I feel a sense of achievement. I managed to make it thru this far, perform for the public in Kuala Lumpur and did not give up. I did it. I managed to pull thru.

Honestly, I am contented.

luv,
-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. check out my facebook to see some glimpse of Public Encounters. :D provided i haven't already untag myself.

If you

2009-02-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

If this is a game, I surrender
If this is a plot to make me cry, I surrender
If this is a way to cause me misery, I surrender

Because I've had enough, I don't want to play
Because I've had enough, I don't want to cry
Because I've had enough, I don't want pain.

Please, go easy on me.
I know I can't have things go my way, Don't tell it to me nO more.
I just need time, to recover.

Not now , I beg of you.
I cannOt hang on, I am slipping off.

But at this point, I wiSh I just had courage enough to let go.

-Shasha Bagharib-

Busy Busy Busy

2009-02-19T23:39:00.004+08:00

22nd Feb - Wayang Kulit Performance @ Roof Top Theatre,Sunway University College.
3pm-4pm

COME SUPPORT!

TRADITIONAL MALAYSIAN THEATRE! :D

-Shasha Bagharib-

HAPPY V-DAY

2009-02-15T13:15:00.002+08:00

9 gIRlS, 2 boyS, alcOhol ( not me ) mOcktail ( def me + zhi ) , breezy air at republic, played the truth game, laughed, gaming date, red in the face ( not me ) red in the eye ( def me ) , late night out , a little bit of dancing ( not me ) , late night supper ( def me ) a doze of coffee and smoothie , and finally hOme!

HOW CAN THAT NOT BE THE BEST V-day ANYONE COULD EVER HAVE!

I LOVE THE GLORIA JEANS SESSION WE HAD, oH and hOW COULD I MISS THE J-CO DONUTS!

NOW THIS IS WHAT I CALL LOVE!

THANK YOU MELINDA FOR THE GAMING DATE, DIANDRA FOR THE SUPPORT WHEN I WAS DOWN, JOANNE FOR THE SWEET GIFT OF STRESS BALL AND CHOCOLATE, SALLY FOR THE BREAK, KEVIN FOR THE LAUGHTER, ZHI FOR THE TRUTHS, GRACE & NEGAR FOR BEING THERE AND NAGISA FOR THE RIDE, SUPPER AND BREAKFAST!

now this is what i call FRIENDS !

-Shasha Bagharib-

2009-02-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

STUDENT COUNCIL YO! MAR-VE-LLOUS !

mY FRENster iS sOooO, un frenster likE. CoS peoPle in my friendS liSt, are thoSe whO randomly add me, and I choOse to randomly add them back ~

STUDENT COUNCIL! FINALLY ! RESULTS ARE OUT! :D

can't wait for the uniform ! :p heehe!

luv luv ,

-Shasha Bagharib-

So iSsit this or that?

2009-02-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

I dOn't knOw the anSwer to that.

If I do thiS, doeS it matter? If I do that, am I wrong?

But if I chOose to go againSt you will you skin me alive?

I canNot tolerate pain, except for a certain typeS of pain, that shall not be mentiOned, (* nO you dope, I mean stretching pain included ) .

Anyways, I realized that I don't like going straight to the point when I blog.

SUBTEXT! :D

I dOn't like hOw a certain something is being planned! Or shall i say hOw someone is planning it all.!

Oh wellS, Sat, time to destreSS! Out with college mateS!

luv !
-Shasha Bagharib-

To be Honest

2009-02-09T12:32:00.002+08:00

I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY TO ME

NOR DO I CARE TO HEAR THE EXPLANATION YOU HAVE FOR ME.

YOU MADE A MISTAKE, SO YOU FIX IT.

DON'T LET YOURSELF BE BLINDED COS THIS THING YOU ARE DOING IS SO WRONG.

REALIZE IT AND THEN WE'LL TALK.

-Shasha Bagharib-

Snap out of it, I know you better than thiS.

Told Cha

2009-02-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

OopS , I did it again.

I spOke toO sOon. See , SometimeS, somethingS are just not meant to be you knoW.
ItS like when A and B becomeS A and C. You See, there iS a gap. You get my drift ?
nO?

I thouGht sO?

ClasS at 10am tomorrow. No, I have nOt confused my dayS because I chOse to sleep all day lOng, which I did not dO since i wAs up and about at 8ish something am when the sky iS about to welcome the sun. Well in my world it iS soO screw you.

AnyhoOtS, I am alMoSt, ALMOST i say done with my asSignmentS. You know what, I love my life the way it iS nOw. Perfect. SchOOl, sometimeS in between there iS the out part, and then hOme sweet hOme and do work! Isn't that Good?! BecoS that's why I am here, living on my own, for a few months till my parentS come and then they go then it becOmeS a routine. ItS different frOm a ritual you knOw. I know it iS, but I don't know hOw. !

Okay, its 16 minuteS paSS my bed time. I know I am such a baby but I need the sleep you know.! I need sleep to get my work done and be fueled up with energy tomorrow.

PH on Monday! Yippieyayayippeyyippeya! Ah me Gawd, I sound like someone I really don't like. Only SHE would do that. GeeeroSsee!

Goodnight world.

luv,
-Shasha Bagharib-

Bride Wars !

2009-02-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

SoON sOon, aS in a few years time soOn.

She iS officially my new favourite!

ThiS entry was due a week agO? I don't remember but my blogspot had some issues. And now is the only time I can log in!

Anyhoots, I will update when I have free time. Now, my head is throbbing, I have to get up EARLY for rehearsal tomorrow and am heading out after college, or maybe nOt, depends on my health which is taking a low right now. :'( not goOd.

Wish I could use the weekend to sleep, but nO, this Saturday, I have wayang kulit. I kinda miss wayang kulit but then , when I am feeling like this, I could use my Saturday off so I can sleep in without having to worry about anything. Especially the waking up part.

Prolly use the Sunday.

luv,
-Shasha Bagharib-

I need the sleeP

2009-01-28T03:54:00.003+08:00

wEIRD huh. i have nO clasS later today, claSS only resumes tomorrow.

Its 3.53am and i am still awake. Surprise surprise people, the "baby" is still awake!

Don't ask me what's wrong, I have nO idea either. I wish I knew.

I thought maybe because the airconditioning was too cold, soO i got up to switch it off and turn on the fan instead but that did not work.

I thought it might be because I was having this runny nose so i got up again to go eat this medicine which is supposed to make you really drowsy but still it didn't work then i went out to pee and i was hoping that i wud fall asleep, but yes you guessed it right, i couldn't sleep!

God! I need to sleep! I am so tired but how come my eyes just won't close!

Thank God for technology. Thank God I have internet connection. Otheriwse I wud have just died.

-Shasha Bagharib-

prolly just misses Home toO much. I know right, i've been back like only 4 hrs. sO u see people, Home is where the heart is doesn't work for me thO i wish it really does then these Goodbyes won't have to be so painful ._.

PerfectiOn

2009-01-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

I like my life the way it is now. For now that iS. Nothing hard nOthing bad nothing negative. Enjoying the CNY holiday, in the comfort of home in Singapore. I like!

Anyways, am heading back for Malaysia tomorrow. Darn. I always hate the goodbyeS. Not easy you know, sitting in the bus and watching home fade away. Not good.

Okay, I am done with my journal, and I have done my theatre project assIgnment. And aLL i have to do is rehearse my movement sequence and read my notes. I actually meant to read it in the bus but i succumbed to watching GG instead. I am addicted to GG! I <3 Blair and Chuck! I used to like Nate like a lot until I see him kissing V and falling for Lil J! Come on la! Not suitable! Blair and Nate is like Match Made in Heaven kay! I love Blair!

Okay! I shall continue reading now ! Am currently reading, Shopaholic & Baby. Previously was reading, A Place Called Here.

Highly Recommended!

-Shasha Bagharib-
wishes alL her Chinese Friends, Namely just Jane, A HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR! MAY THIS BE A PROS-PRES NEW YEAR FOR YOU! :)

Lonely Sunday Cloudy AfternOon

2009-01-18T14:45:00.000+08:00

Its a lonely Sunday Cloudy Afternn.

And I am in pain. And I am weak. And I am not myself.

I did my work already. Just one more assignment left undone. I will finish it by midnight tonight. That's my resolution. I don't want to prolong it any longer. Its a waste of time and it hurts. I wish you knew what I was talking about. I guess you don't. Because everything is embedded in these words.

I need a break. Again. Yes. From everyone now. No, I don't need your understanding. Would prefer it if you don't.

-Shasha Bagharib-

Originality

2009-01-13T21:56:00.003+08:00

Back to college.

What I love about this semester?

We are closer as a class. We know how to communicate and work together.

And, I don't have to wake up early.

Tuesdays and Thurs, 11am - 5pm.
Mondays, Wed & Fri, 2pm - 5pm
Sat , 10am - 2pm

Simple right? No early mornings for me! Yay me!

- Shasha Bagharib -

p.s Sometimes, you just can't say it. Cos it may just be toO soOn to tell.

Train

2009-01-07T12:50:00.004+08:00

Am now in the comfort of my home watching movie with my beloved cousin.

Movie, hanging out, food paradise, gaming.

Perfect lifestyle. Am loving it!

Don't wanna break out of it, but sooner or later, I know I would have to. Sooner comes before later.

till next time,

<3

-Shasha Bagharib-

Thank You

2009-01-03T16:10:00.002+08:00

Thank you so much. I know not who you both are, nor do I know your name. I know not where you originate from, but the fact that you helped us , is what matters the most.

Thank you to the garbage collectors who helped my sister locate her missing wallet. :)

Do not look down on them! Cos they make an honest living! If this is what it takes for us all to treat them equal and not chide them, then so be it!

Courtesy begins with all of us. I have my learnt from my mistake. Have you?

-Shasha Bagharib-

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

hellO 2009

2009-01-01T16:58:00.002+08:00

Its Goodbye 2008

Hello 2009

Finally? Or shall I say , " Damn, why so fast? "

Honestly, I haven't had enough of December yet! That's my favorite time of the month! Winter for some countries, festive season for all.

December 2008 proved to be very memorable for me. I made new friends. Friends who actually made me wanna stay in Singapore. Friends who gave me a reason to stay.

However, come 10th January 2009, I will be making my way back. Its sad to always come and go. Some people just don't get how heart breaking it is to always have to say goodbye. Its not easy.

Never will be. For me at least.

A friend just asked me what my resolution for the New Year is. And my answer was, Nothing.

What's the point of making resolutions if you don't keep to it? Am I right?

Well maybe, find that certain someone to share my heart and soul with. No? Yea, I guess not. I am still so not ready. Commitment? IS A DEFINITE NO NO!

I really wish, 2009 will bring you and me everlasting happiness.! May God always watch over us and grant us our wishes and may our prayers be answered. Insya Allah.

-Shasha Bagharib-

Shasha's Plea

2008-12-28T14:04:00.002+08:00

I guess this is one of the biggest smile you can get from me during my stay here. I am going to miss Singapore so much this time round. I appreciate my family even more. I appreciate my true friends even more. Friendship.. Made and lost.

2008 is coming to an end, and I bet many out there will be making their latest entry for 2008 soon . So will I. Wait for it! Will be interesting.

But now, i just ask of you , don't take my happiness, don't take my smile away. Please. Let me feel this happiness. Because for a while now, I've been praying for that to come true. And it has. Though it is not going as planned, at least the root of the happiness is there and one day it will blossom . God Willing.

-Shasha Bagharib-

2008-12-26T00:12:00.002+08:00

Don't leave me here with the tears.
*Unbreak my heart*

Show me the meaning of being lonely.

Unfaithful.

All on replay .

Go figure.

I want my life back. I think I have made one grave mistake but sadly, I don't know how to make it right. There is no way out. For this I know.

I want to smile again,
I want you to take away my pain.

-Shasha Bagharib-

Do Know That

2008-12-24T18:30:00.004+08:00

Do know that I am in pain,
Do know that I feel like a fool,
Do know that I tried but I failed,
Do know that I mean what I said
Do know that I am sick
&
Do know that I am tired

Everything that has been going on.

If you are smart enough, you'll know where to go to find elabaration.

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. No, I am NOT Okay!

This is for you

2008-12-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

Screw what you think of me .... * Cos you don't mean shit to me*

Screw what your bloody clan think of me * Cos I'm glad I don't have to see those faces everyday *

Screw what you want to do to me * Cos this is a free country, I can do what I want , It won't break the law *

Screw you and yourself :)* Cos I am fucking happy the way I am now *

I don't need you and your bunch of fuck wits to help me go on with life because I have my own bunch of fun people! And they've gone past your stage of life . They lead a happy care free life and they don't make enemies. They know better than to do that. Unlike you, who still cause people to get all angry, make their blood boil and spoil people's perfect night out.

Hey, get your facts straight . Don't say things which will only back fire on you .

- Shasha Bagharib -

p.s. Me? Childish? Cos i posted it for the world to know? No. Don't think so. I WANT the world to know. So deal with it!

Nothing - ness

2008-12-18T15:03:00.002+08:00

Been out again. But not everyday of the week. My darling parents are off to Malaysia. Back "home". And my sister is working so once again, I have the whole house all to myself! Lovely! :)

Anyways, I had a chat with someone I haven't seen for a long time and the news she told me is one of those ; hey, what did you say about me?? I heard you say something about me and I am not happy. * Basically, someone came up to her and got all pissed at her and then the drama comes in*

Slowly now, say it with me... Oh. My. God.

I thought this happened back in secondary school. Now we are in college~ And still, its happening? Why?

My dear friend is not the only in this state. Its the same for me. But then again, things like that leaves me emotionless. Surprisingly, I don't care as much. Of course I will be lying if I said I did not care at all. I care enough to want to know what is being said but I really don't care enough to let my tears flow or go all crazy and mutilate myself. Because if at this age, people still choose to do this kinda thing, then, it says a lot.

I am not saying I am all that perfect. Hell no. I am one with many flaws. You cannot count them! No. But then again, I break out of it! Life is all about having fun! I learn that from people in my college. Yes, there are times when we have to get stressed out about things. That only includes school work! and when things happen to your family! Or if your friend dies, or is it hospital. You get my drift.

I guess I will end here.

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. I am not implying on you. I am not saying this post is about you. This is my space. It is all about me.

Oops!

2008-12-12T21:33:00.002+08:00

Why oops? Because I did not bring home my laptop charger! It is hard to upload any photos now because I am using my sister's PC and I haven't uploaded my pictures from my trusted, most lovable Ferrari to my computer! It is hard work you know! ;)

So, anyways, I have been going out quite a bit. And yes I am still missing my home! 3/4 part of me cannot wait to go home! Minus all the stress from school of course! I must have mentioned this a gazillion times, when it comes to the fourth semester, I am as good as dead!

I like Malaysia when I am not behind time submitting my assignments, when there are no drama, no stress. When class times are not too early. Tho I stay 5 minutes away from college,that is very far by the way... i still need time to get ready, to pick out clothes. The getting out of bed part is hard! I am one hell of a lazy teenager! Ask around, they'll tell you!

Jane, Is, Fit, are all on break right now! That means more time to go out! But it also means more money spent ! I am officially broke right now! No i mean it. Like seriously no money. So, can you please transfer some money into my account? :)

Alright then, I will post some pictures soon. When I feel the mood and when I get the pictures. So until then, just wait for it alright?

By the way, I like using Mozilla Firefox. Why? Because it corrects my spelling mistakes. :)

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. I don't care what you say because I came back to have fun. I am on a vacation, which means I should be happy. And I won't let what you did destroy this happiness. :)

Expression

2008-12-08T22:18:00.008+08:00

* Maid in Distress...? *

Home! Yes , I am in the comfort of my Home Sweet Home. Or so they say.

Anyways, I miss my friends back there! I met new people towards the end of semester, I am not sure if i mentioned them before.

When I have the mood, I will tell you about them. When I have uploaded the photos! * I forgot to bring home my laptop charger. thank God for my desktop PC * I can't wait to tell you people about these people! They are a bunch full of fun~!

Okay, so today we celebrated Hari Raya Aidil Adha ( Raya Haji ). Headed back up to Malaysia. Nope, sadly not to Bandar Sunway, but to JB. Went to Leisure Farm Resort where my aunt stays. Played games, catch up with the aunts and uncles. Took photos and tried to keep a smile on my face. Yes, you read it right. I said tried.

No, its not because I really miss people. There are just some things about me that is not easy to decode.

Anyways, till next time!

luv,

Shasha Bagharib

p.S. I hope you are Okay now? This is fun! All this little letters for you but you just dun know about it! I like it this way! And be strong. If not for me, for her :)

Goodbye... Semester 2

2008-12-04T12:39:00.002+08:00

I had fun! This is the best semester yet! I only had two. ._.

So anyways, yesterday marked the end of my first year in Sunway University College. Another year to go! Time flies! Well not a year yet, but close enough.

Broken friendships, and then we make up and be friends again only makes us stronger. I love the people here. March 08 rules! I had fun!

And towards the end of semester, I made new friends. Friends who care enough about me to make me happy. I got closer to people in class and close enough to actually confide in everyone of them!

Once i reach Singapore for the holiday, I will upload photos.! Its faster there! :)
I will miss them all for the next month! I really will.! Am missing them already.

To my friends back in Singapore,
I am coming home! So make time for me. You know my email address, you know my number, i am sure you know where I stay, so make time for me! Cos i definitely will make full use of my stay in Singapore and make time for you all!

I love you all! :)

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. to a certain sumone who left without saying Goodbye, I miss you dearly.

Stupid? I don't think so

2008-11-26T00:16:00.002+08:00

SOMETIMES
SHASHA BAGHARIB MAY BE STUPID
SOMETIMES
SHASHA BAGHARIB DOES NOT GET IT
SOMETIMES
SHASHA BAGHARIB IS SCREWED UP SHIT
SOMETIMES
SHASHA BAGHARIB DOESN'T THINK
SOMETIMES
SHASHA BAGHARIB WISH U COULD JUST
UNDERSTAND
HER
luv,
Shasha Bagharib

Sometimes, she wishes you love her as much as she does you.

Shasha Get 's it

2008-11-23T14:21:00.002+08:00

Yes, does the title reflect the meaning of what I am about to say? It's ur call.

So, yeS I am deeply hurt by what happened. But I dunnO how to not let it get to me because nO matter what I tell myself, its the pain of what happens that lingers. It's here to stay iSn't it? What pain is ever good pain?

To all whO think I am just being emO, seeking attention, or whatever you bother to feel, put youtself in my shoeS. Because I know what I am doing. I am aware, I doN'T do things without thinking of what will happen next. Well at least I am aware or so I think. But then again, what I do, is not a cry for sympathy, nor issit a cry for attention. That is between God and I.

I just ask of you, for those I cry to, to understand what I am going thru right now. Its not as easy as you think it seems. Life is not perfect for everybody. How i wish it was. But it isn't. So pleaSe, just try. to Understand.

Yes, I am in pain. Why? Only I know.

And to a certain some1, i get it. Thank you for putting it in a nicer way. I get it already. So yes, I know where to go from here. I promise, things will still be the same . Well I want it to be the same. What about you? Can we stiLL be like how we used to be before?

So, I end here. WHat's ur call?

paINfully typed,
-Shasha Bagharib-

Direct and Indirect

2008-11-22T16:40:00.002+08:00

My teddy is really cute and fat :)

Anyways, next week is the last week of lectureS which means its a week closer to finalS! So faSt. Its goNna be the end of semester already. I'll save the end of semester post for later :)

Anyways, ended rehearsalS at 4pm. Woke up at like 11.15 today. Had 8 hrs of sleep. Been getting sufficient sleep. Just that tonight, I HAVE TO complete my Script Analysis assignmtment before anything elSe. And then get started on my script. And then complete my journals. I need to do my laundry but b4 alL that, i need to get my lazy aSS to pyramid to pay my phone bills because my phone got barred AGAIN! i DUNNo wat the heLL I do with my phone. I try to limit it alSo and people call me, not the other way round but still, my phone is barred! God damn it!

LookS like it is about to rain. Don't feel like going alone but there is no one online for me to go with. Thank God we have a Maxis outlet nearby, I'd die if i had to go KL to pay my bills.

Orite earthlings, till then.

Wait for my end of semester post. It will be interestingly ....

luv,
-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s. my English is not bad. after interestingly.... insert your own word :)

How to be Shasha Bagharib

2008-11-21T14:00:00.002+08:00

Ingredients:

A little bit of emotion
A lot of tears
A little bit of love
A lot of men
A little bit of drama

A few drops of friends
A wave of eyeliner
A lot of sleep
A perfect family
A bit of stroking

Mix it all together, and you get me!

Love me , don't hate me.

-Shasha Bagharib-

p.s Don't forget, nights of prayers and always have God in your mind :)

Don't

2008-11-16T13:36:00.002+08:00

nEVer in a long time have i smiled with a meaning behind it.
itS been a while.
But I am still afraid, paranoid, doubtfull.

BEcoS, happineSS only laSt for a while.
In my case, no leSS than half a day.
Why?

I just wanna reach out to ya'll
and beg,
beg not to take this happineSs away.

Reach out to the source of happineSS,
to not go away.

Anyone of you ever felt like this before?
Sure you have.

So pleaSe, just listen and

Allow me to to be happy.

Happy ,
-Shasha Bagharib-

@ Last

2008-11-09T13:52:00.003+08:00

I couldn't sign in to blogger for the past two days! I don't know why! I miss my internet back hOme, its so much faster.

As I am typing, I am contemplating whether or not to go to the library today. I need to get started on my research but am toO lazy to move! And its gonna rain! So, i gueSS, i will go either on Tuesday, or tomorrow before rehearsals. We'll see.

Anyways, speaking of schOOl, this is the end of Week 1 in Nov, 3 weeks to go! Classes and lectures end on 28th Nov, and then examinations begins! Can't wait for this sem to end! But then again, I don't want 4th sem to start! Seeing how the seniorS struggle to make it thru the sem, die la.!

I am not cut out to be a filmmaker, I know it. I like to write, write things that don't make sense to anyone unless they really understand. But then again, I have to finish off what i started. I managed to make it thru highschool and college is just half of what college is. 2 yrs! I can do this!

I am hungry! Prolly going to go down to the store to fill up my tummy. Gonna make meself some tea after prayers :)

OH and rehearsals, going Okay, I still need to find a way to lose myself and indulge in a 30 yr old , person whose husband is having an affair with another girl. God Forbid, i dun want it to happen to me, but then again, its all about the act! Yesterdays rehearsals were cancelled. So, 4 mOnday, 3rd rehearsals, to memorize till Unit 6,! God make my mind work! PLeAse!

AnywayS,

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY COUSIN SAID WHO GOT MARRIED YESTERDAY TO KAK ZARA! :) MAY YOUR NEWLY BUILT MARRIAGE LIFE LAST FOREVER! :)

luv,
Shasha Bagharib

2008-11-03T18:11:00.002+08:00

AND IT BEGINS!

nervous dowh! have to keep telling myself that I can do it! 3 weeks to go! Just 3 weeks. 3 more mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays, thursdays, fridays, saturdays & sundays. just 3 more! I have to be stronger than this, and I know I can.

By the way, I have a new addiction. His name is CHACE CRAWFORD! He is hot! Sally wants to call the pOlice on me because of this. I don't know why

My stomach hurts, like really bad. I puked during Anne's class today. Either I ate breakfast too late, cos i warmed up right after or because its a bad breakfast combination. I don't know. Broke out into cold sweat. Ew. I hate cold sweat. It makes me feel like I am experiencing death. Scary. Anne told me to sit down and Grace massaged my head for me. Was good. I love massages. Not from Afiq Nazmi tho. Cause I don't feel a thing and he says its cause I am too stiff. You have got to be kidding me. Its not me la Afiq, its you.

Diandra's crazy today. What a looney. But its a good kinda crazy lunatic crazy. Susah la kalau orang dilamun cinta ni kan. Watever it is, I had fun. Eating chicken and making a fool out of myself. The chicken drumstick they sell in the cafeteria is damn good. But today, the hashbrown was tasteless! The chef prolly had a flu or something. He couldn't taste right. I don't know.

Okay, MSN is not working and so is faceboOking. Am waiting for my sister to come home with food. Before I go for my first rehearsals. I am supposed to be sleeping. Resting before I go. But then, I haven't read the script. Well I have. That's why I can only memorize 2/10 pages. 8 more pages of memorizing to go! Nervous la! I scared I screw up. I don't care if people think I act no good but then I don't wanna screw up Rebecca's grade. That's why I am gonna try my best to make it through. I will!
InsyaAllah!

Orite, its back to reading and trying to memorize the script then. Will come back with news on how the rehearsals go.

w luv,
-Shasha Crawford, I mean Shasha Bagharib-